Rage

Yeah theres a keg party tonight...That aughta be fun altho I dont drink anymore...Its still cool to chill with my bros n hos you know? So um if your reading this and you dont somehow know about it then um you should go...*sigh* damn man im sorry I really dont have anything to say about anything today...I feel a part of me is missing for some reason...weird. I guess thats all I have to say...peace!

I just want to cite a poem I wrote a few weeks ago, If you dont like it I apologize, i just feel that right now it is very relevant to my life...
I sit alone on the side of my bed.
Wondering what had become.
What was meant?
I hang my head bracing it with my hands .
How could this happen?
My heart beats harder at the thought.
A tear runs down my cheek .
I sigh desperately,
I was alone so long.
So many nights thinking I belong that way.
So many times I gripped my pillow and cried.
I wished for someone to help me.
Someone please take me away from this.
All this pain I feel.
Is there any other way?
And there you are.
Your pain I can feel.
Your eyes dripped with the same tears.
How oddly our pains collide.
You hurt , you cry…
I loose myself in your silent beauty.
I want to help you make it all go away.
I look to you as you look to me.
Where have you been?
I need you as you need me.
A wondering hope to feel one day.
I blinding pain for you.
And then you said,
What never thought to be said again..
You said what made me forget what loneliness was.
You said you loved me…
And I love you…

Yep today is my brother Steves 21st birthday...its funny you know. Everyone always makes such a big issue over turning 21 when in all essence it gives you no more freedom than you had when you were 20 or even 16 for that matter. All it does is enable you to buy your own damn beer instead of bumming off of everyone else like youve done for years. Seems more like a bad thing than a good. Ah well tho Happy Birthday Steben Deline..peace out!

*sigh* yeah man Im a tired mofo ...Sorry ive got nothin special to say today man...Check out Katies site or something cause like shes running it again itd be Starsite. Be cool all...Peace out!

Hmm this site is really coming along I think...I had parts of music cut for each section for the pics and the Rage section but Geoshities wont hold them. Every time I link them to the site it says that "The web site you are trying to access has exceeded its allocated data transfer." And I always say "Aww Kiss my ass you bitch!". It sucks cause I put a lot of effort into editing all the songs to fit each location on the site...Im just gonna have to find another provider or something cause these asses suck dick....wait a minute asses that suck dick....would you call them fags too? Eh ah well tho, ill figure something out...Peace out homes...

Hmm I found out today that a good friend of mines house was broken into. Unfortunately he was there , and being the fellow piano mover he is he decided he should try to wrestle the gun away from the unwelcome intruder. This bastard hit my friend in the head with the gun accidently discharging it shooting my friend in the shoulder sending the bullet through his arm and out jsut above his elbow. He is in the hospital in serious condition. The fucks stole almost everything from him including his piggy bank, what the hell is that? There was nothing more than pennys in it. His name was and hopefull still will be Mike Thompson. I hope that anyone who reads this will send him their best wishes in recovery and if your the praying type then please do...So all of you please keep all of your doors locked at all times and make sure you can see who is at your door before you answer it...please be cautious...this sorta thing has been happening a lot lately. Dont blow this off and not expect it to happen to you because it can. Be safe and protect yourself or find someone who can...peace!

Hmm today is Mothers day. So I guess um Happy Mothers Day to all mommys out there. Yeah. My mom always gets mad at me on this day, every year in fact. Cause like if I dont tell her Happy Mothers Day right away, like literally as soon as she sees me then its a sign of disrespect to her and she gets pissed. Its like damn women im jsut going to take a leak man i just woke up *Punch -Kick - Stab* Ouch!. Shes yelled at me so much about it that it has become extremely uncomfortable just to say it to her now. Every year she gives me this look like "mother fucker you better say it" . So i always play it off like im all excited for her n shit. Everyone always chills with their family on holidays like this and has a good ole time or at least pretend too. Not us tho, we have no family in OH, we are the dreaded outcasts of our family. So its usually just my bros and I stayin for dinner and thats about it. Yeah too much info?...yeeaahh probably...Happy days man Happy days...